Posted on September 14 2015
Worthlessness, constantly feeling dirty, shame, and confusion became constant battles for me. I worried about what people would think of me, I also did not want to cause drama for my family. So I kept it a secret. My life began to spiral. I'm currently suffering from depression and anxiety. I transformed from a goal-oriented and A wonderful student, to a student who skips classes and forgets homework. After 13 years of silence, I finally broke down and couldn't take it anymore. I had been raped, molested and completely torn apart from my own flesh and blood. To this very day I do not understand why my two older cousins and my uncle would want to have sexual intercourse with me !! Somehow after everything I've been through I still have strength to keep pushing to find the light at the end of my tunnel. I struggle sometimes will suicidal thoughts. I know I do not want to make a permanent decision for a temporary situation. However sometimes I feel like that's all I have left and the only way to finally be at peace.