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Battles lost but the war was won!!

Posted on April 02 2015

Battles lost but the war was won!!
On September 8th 2006, I received a phone call that changed my life. I was 24 years old when I went in for my yearly check up with my doctor. About 3 days later I got a phone call at work and to be honest, wasn’t too nice to my doctor. She wanted me to come in and meet with her and I didn’t have time in my busy life to do so. I rudely told her to tell me what she needed to meet with me about because I was busy and couldn’t come in. She asked in her kind voice to please sit down and listen, I informed her that I wasn’t able to do that because my IT guy was fixing my computer.

Then she began to tell me something that changed who I was as a person. She took a deep breath and said “Amber, I received the results of your PAP and something isn’t right. The test shows cancer cells and we need to meet with you as soon as possible so we can talk about treatment.” I didn’t answer, I stood there processing what she just said. She asked me if I was still on the line, I mumbled yes, set up an appointment to meet with a specialist.

After two years of chemo and lots of lost battles, I had to make a choice. I always wanted to have children but with everything with one phone call. At 26 I had to make a choice, keep going through chemo and be more aggressive with radiation or remove everything that has been attacked. At this point my cancer had moved from my cervix, to my uterus and ovaries. So I fought with myself and made a huge decision to end all the little battles and give into the war.

I am know going on seven years cancer free. It wasn’t without lots of tears and sadness. There are many positive things that came out of it and lots of loss. I meet my husband just after I had my hysterectomy. We were married a year later and we are madly in love. I still have days were I see a pregnant friend or hold a new born baby and feel sad because I will never know what it is like to carry a child. I keep fighting every day and know that one day we will adopt and start to build our family.

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